When I started on my quest to help others, I listed myself as willing to speak with families dealing with addiction. I receive fairly frequent phone calls, and I feel so strongly for each one of these affected people.
I spoke with one family this am, another yesterday. All have kids with oxy addiction, and each family is looking for a way out. Out. As if there was some kind of failsafe. Some kind of secret treasure map, and if we could only find the big red X, we would be set for life. Drug addiction doesn’t work that way. It just doesn’t. The map, if we could imagine one, would be topographic: gullies and peaks, faultlines and fissures.
I met a guy at a hotel happy hour in Chico while I was traveling for business. He’d been to rehab eight times. Eight times, for oxy and heroin addiction. He said there is nonstop temptation everywhere, and believes that it wasn’t anything that happened in rehab that final time that has kept him clean for seven years, rather, it is the fact that he just got tired of living that life. He got tired. He stopped choosing that dead end time after time.
THEN, In the news this week, Purdue Pharma has reformulated OxyContin, creating pills that turn gooey when they are crushed and turn to gum between the teeth. They get stuck in the nose and are for that reason known as “Jellynoses,” according to Dr. Ronald Bugaoan, as quoted in the New York times article, “Drug is Harder to Abuse, but Users Persevere,” by Abby Goodnough and Katie Zezima, that can be found at this link.
Two paces forward and three paces back? No closer to that fabled red X and the pirates are sneaking down from the crags.