I still get a lump in my throat every time I walk to my closet to retrieve the 6 panel drug test which I keep stocked. This little self-sealing cup will test for Marijuana, Oxycotin, Meth, Opiates, MDA (ecstasy) and Cocaine all at once. I know that once I reach in that brown box and wrap my fingers around the test kit that I am headed directly to Brandon and usually to wake him up so he has no time to elude me or make any excuses that he cannot urinate in the cup. I am hopeful when he awakes that he will quickly agree to get out of bed and pee for me. Brandon knows that I will be watching to assure that he is truly providing his urine and there is no substitute for watching the act itself as it is a necessity if you want to believe the results. The morning is also the optimum time because there is little excuse for not being able to provide a sample as we all need to relieve ourselves upon waking. Drug addicts have so many ways to fool you and if you are gullible enough (or you really don’t want to face the truth) you will be easily fooled in more ways than you can count. Brandon is accustomed to testing as it has been a common occurrence in his life for the last several years. When he was using and we were testing him during our ill-fated attempt to detox him, he had every excuse in the world as to why he couldn’t “go” because he knew that the test would tell the truth. One time he couldn’t go and minutes later came strolling down the hallway with the sample cup sealed with “urine” already inside. He knew the rules that he must test in front of me. He proudly proclaimed that he was clean but I knew he had gone down the hall and likely filled the test cup with synthetic urine that he hid somewhere. These days are different and Brandon knows that we are nobody’s fool. He knows that he is subject to testing without notice and that is the only way to test a drug addict. Stating “we are going to drug test you when you get home” to the addict in your life will only cause them to stop at the local “smoke shop” and purchase a magical potion that will clean their urine in preparation of the pending drug test. Perhaps a purchase of synthetic urine or if they are broke and they know a clean “friend” they will drop by and beg them to pee in a jar or a zip lock so that they can empty the contents into your drug test. You must not trust the addict in your life if you want to help them. I tested Brandon last Saturday morning in the fashion I described above. The lump in my throat was present and accounted for as he wobbled his sleepy body towards the bathroom door I stood next to. Brandon is still 6’2” and is now 187 pounds. 57 pounds heavier than when his skeletal body entered rehab a little over 2 years ago. Now he is addicted to working out at the gym usually 7 nights a week. He is proud to walk in the room without a shirt on or in a “wife beater” T-shirt and show off his chiseled body but that is not enough proof for this once gullible father. No matter what, I know that drug test don’t lie and drug addicts do. I watched the side panel of the test cup as the urine within soaked into the strips of paper. These strips will disclose if he is clean from every drug on that panel. The moisture line slowly creeps up hopefully reveling the second of two dark lines which will indicate a clean test result. Only one dark line and it means he is dirty. It all only takes about a minute but it seems like so much longer. I have to remind myself to breath as I await the verdict. Two lines form for each panel representing each drug and I exhale in relief. Brandon tested completely clean and now I can rejoice in his sobriety. He maneuvers his sleepy body back to the bed as he smiles with confidence because he was the only person who knew what the test result was going to be when I first woke him. And now I know for sure because I followed the protocol. Another day clean for Brandon and I am relieved but I also know that sometime very soon, I will walk into that closet once again and reach for that drug test, lump in throat, armed with hope and prayer and wait to see if the result will deliver the same gratification as this Saturday has.